What do you do when you don’t feel like going to church?
I struggled with this Sunday afternoon. I was supposed to lead singing, but I didn’t feel like my heart was in the right place.
I just finished a hard conversation that left me hurting. At that moment I wasn’t blown away by God. I wasn’t inspired by His grace. Honestly, I was anxious and fuming. My heart and mind were flooding with emotions that ranged from doubt and confusion to anger and bitterness. Did I say the wrong things? Should I have stopped talking and just let it slide? I replay the entire conversation in my head and evaluate my responses.
Did I feel like going to church? Nothing in me wanted to go, I just wanted to get away and be by myself. But I couldn’t think straight so I went outside to engage in some manual labor and sort it all out in my head.