Decisions on a Sunday Afternoon

What do you do when you don’t feel like going to church?

I struggled with this Sunday afternoon.  I was supposed to lead singing, but I didn’t feel like my heart was in the right place.

I just finished a hard conversation that left me hurting.  At that moment I wasn’t blown away by God.  I wasn’t inspired by His grace.  Honestly, I was anxious and fuming.  My heart and mind were flooding with emotions that ranged from doubt and confusion to anger and bitterness.  Did I say the wrong things?  Should I have stopped talking and just let it slide? I replay the entire conversation in my head and evaluate my responses.

Did I feel like going to church?  Nothing in me wanted to go, I just wanted to get away and be by myself.  But I couldn’t think straight so I went outside to engage in some manual labor and sort it all out in my head.

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